Creative Mediocrity For Fun and Profit

"I'm all about Truth, Justice, and the American Way, baby. And part of the American Way is macking on hotties." -- The Mighty Buzzard

Yet Another Tedious...

Me: Jefferson
ICQ: 5306225
AIM and Y!: dexcheque

Creative Mediocrity For Fun and Profit


<< October 2003 >>
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
 01 02 03 04
05 06 07 08 09 10 11
12 13 14 15 16 17 18
19 20 21 22 23 24 25
26 27 28 29 30 31

Shameless (And, I Assure You, Worthy) Plugs:
Super Sister Raindrop Outlook

The Mighty Buzzard's
Here There Be

The goddess of, well, something I'm sure -- Genevieve's Ink Stain

The eye candy at Aristry Images

Dr. God's
Waxing Sociologic
Waxing Theologic

Other Groovine Stuff:

The Raging Capitalist
Inaudible Refrain
Chris's Noodleshop
Xaos Rising
Siren's Song
Where you can find Davemania!
Into the mind of Phases
Stepherific's Blog-o-rific
Through a Glass, Darkly
The Occasional
How The Other Side Lives
and of course...
Why Being Human Kicks Ass

Stuff I Like To Keep Up With:

What's playing at the nearest theater to Yours Truly

Site Meter

The Deep And Abiding Wisdom of Yours Truly About:
The Temperment Of Being Sick
Proper Application Of Jealousy
The Appeal Of Wisdom
When Women Actually Come To The Rescue
The Refreshing Integrity Of Strippers
Guy Math
Relationship Sex Vs. Casual Sex
The Male Sex Drive
Types of Women
Tom Boys
Nice Guys
Crush Friends
The Hosses
More About The Hosses
Good Old (well, still new) Tink

* Yours Truly
* More About Yours Truly

Contact Me

If you want to be updated on this weblog Enter your email here:

Friday, October 10, 2003
Human-Inspired Thingie

Windows XP is annoying the piss out of me, Interested Party. That's where the moment – this very moment – finds me. Being the discerning Interested Party that you are, I thought you'd want to know. I find myself inspired to seek out the anthropomorphic personification of Windows XP himself – whoever he is and wherever he may be lurking – and beat nine kinds of hell out of him. Which chould take me a while, since I've only ever discovered six kinds of hell thus far. Hear me growl? Hear me snarl, Interested Party?

But I digress... Also, this moment, I am listening to a carefully crafted playlist of MP3's – each selection chosen for the precise way in which it doesn't make me wistful in any way. What. So. Ever. I am eating some corn chips because I was too distracted to go out and buy actual groceries earlier. I am drinking Jim Beam, and as soon as I run out (this looks to be three swallows away) I'll be slightly more charming, and disasterously dependent on iced tea for the duration of the night. I really should spend more effort stocking the 'fridge.

Now I know you're wondering What The Hell tonight's post is going to be about. That's just like you. You're such a predictable Interested Party – but I don't mind. Not at all. See, the Rolling Stones' “Honky Tonk Women” just started playing here – so rest assured I'm happy about how close we've become. It's good for the relationship. If you were sitting here in the room with me right now I'd wink at you playfully, because we both know I'm a flirt. Well, unless you – Interested Party – are a guy. In which case, I'd invite you to prop up your feet along side mine.

Let's talk a bit about people. Sound good? We are a very interesting bunch of critters, after all. Oh, and damn the bad luck – ZZ-Top's “Legs” just cued up. Oh yeah, baby. It's one of Those Evenings. They require capital letters to properly introduce the words. Where were we...? People, right...

What is it that causes within us to stir such a thing as hope? I'm a big fan of hope. I have all the albums. Hope is such a great thing. Even when our hopes seem to have led us into the stumbling grounds and we've skinned our knees, we still hope. All of us. When we're confused and hurting and the pain's sharp and long anyway – we're hoping. If we didn't hope, the shit wouldn't hurt in the first place.

And it does hurt sometimes, right? We've all been hurt with the vaulable assistance of all the people, places, and things important to us. But still there's hope. There damn sure is. Hope may lead us into the stumbling grounds, and hope draws us through them to the other side. And the other side has one hell of a clear view. On the other side we're stronger. We're faster. We're better. Hope has the technology.

That's for all of us, my very dear Interested Party. We all have that in common and sooner or later we'll all need to remember that little tid-bit. Now go out, have yourself a hellaciously good weekend, and come back to see me later. And fear not, almost certainly I'll be talking about boobies again soon.

Posted at 08:58 pm by soapwort
Make a comment

Thursday, October 09, 2003
Way To Show I'm Smart

Interested Party, I know you're itching to know what the various things weighing upon my mind today are. I sense you squirming with curiousity. So here we go...

Last night I went through my seasonal weekly ritual of watching Angel with some friends of mine. We've been doing it for years now, though up until last year the ritual centered around Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Alas, Buffy is no longer with us – at least in any regular, commercial-interruption sort of way – and now the burden has fallen upon the spin-off series Angel. I don't feel ashamed to admit this, primarily for two reasons:

  1. I watch TV just long enough to watch Angel... well, and Smallville too since it comes on right before. But that's it. I don't watch Comedy Central. I don't watch Friends. I don't watch Discovery Channel. I don't watch anything else. Ever. As far as Other Programming is concerned, I am fresh out of Give A Shit. If it doesn't fit into my DVD player, I don't watch it. So take your Survivor and stick it in your Queer Eyes For the Straight Guy before you, my fickle Interested Party, begin lecturing me on the stupidity of Angel. Am I touchy about it? Nope. I'm adamant, though.

  1. It is quite possibly the most cleverly done, television serial-fiction available. If Sports Night were still around, I wouldn't make that statement so boldly. But it's not. Angel is. Joss Wheadon and the other folks on Team Angel have carefully built something really fun, and for an hour each week it gets piped into our televisions. Don't buy it? Try this on for size: last night's episode occurs whilst we Angel enthusiasts are still unsettled and slightly confused – see, Angel and his posse seem to have sold out to the bad-guys. We're left wondering if the show's taken a dramatic turn for the Bull Fucking Shit -- since it now seems that Angel's not the underdog we're used to rooting for. How's he going to thrill us by throwing a handy piece of scrap rebar through some guy's head, if he's busy running a multi-billion-dollar company? Team Angel has come through for us, and in a very tongue-in-cheek sort of way we see Angel kill a bad guy with a tea set. Two different times.

Oh, hell yeah.

Posted at 06:41 pm by soapwort
Comments (2)

Rambling Bout Women-Folk

If you, Interested Party that you are, want to know what else happened that fateful night I began describing in my last post, you're bound to be disappointed tonight. I'm not going to talk about it. While you might very well find the saga of Drunken Kyle gripping -- I damn sure wanted to grip him tightly and by the throat several times that night – the story lacks something. Breasts, in fact, and the people who have their own. Females are one of my favorite subjects upon which to contemplate. Not because I expect some day to understand women, I just like the exercise.

So let's talk about women some more, shall we? I am in exactly no danger of becoming sick of the topic any time soon. Why do women fret about the size of their breasts? Women are supposed to be smart, right? How come they don't understand that a man does not really, truly care how much water a woman's breasts would displaced if submerged? And who can possibly answer that question?

Not I, said the cat. Not I.

Posted at 05:09 pm by soapwort
Comments (2)

Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Tale of Misadventure and Booze: Part One

9:30 p.m. to 10:30 p.m.

Somewhere in the vicinity of seven years back, I was cursing quietly in a front lawn at 4 in the morning, twenty miles or so from home. There's a duffle bag in the trunk of my car filled with puke. Next to me, one buddy is explaining why it is he should have his hand in another buddy's pocket. On the porch was another friend, shirtless, and asking furiously if anyone besides himself was ready to leave. What in the Jumped Up Hell, you ask?

It is time, Interested Party, for the very true story of The Time Scott And Kyle Decided To Talk Guitar Tablature Over Way Too Much Liquor. At least the first part of it, anyway. I’m certain that given the time I could come up with a appropriate title but, well, I don’t want to be bothered.

Myself and Kyle drove to Ada in search of Light Mischief. Light Mischief is, for those of you unfamiliar with the varying degrees of this entertainment, usually qualified as such by the lack of expense (and so naturally, by the lack of alcohol). In a collegetown (albeit a small one) this should’ve posed no serious problem. But alas we were a little restless and hard to please. Normally, those in search of Light Mischief aren’t overly particular about what exacly this sort of fun entails. Nothing epic, you know-- maybe just raid a water hazard in search of some rogue golf balls or perhaps catch a flick not involving a heavy topic. Maybe something 'laugh-out-loud-funny'.

However, this fateful evening our appetites for adventure over-reached our initial goal for the evening, which was this: That Kyle not be allowed to drink so much as one single solitary drop of alcohol. Not beer, not whisky, not even nyquil. Nothing. At all.

It’s not that Kyle is unable to hold his liquor. On the contrary, he can drink and drink and drink and drink before it overcomes him and he can no longer stay conscious. He just seems to feel the other effects of alcohol a little earlier than most people and plateaus there for most of the rest of his binge. Four beers and Kyle is a wild man. Twenty-six beers later, Kyle is still a wild man. Get it? No, the reason for we were in search of a non-alcoholic adventure is this: Kyle is notorious for becoming a complete and utter crazy-assed bastard when he is drunk.

Drunken-Kyle throws caution and all semblence of wisdom (and quite often all semblence of clothing) to the wind. The circle of friends to which Kyle and I are both a part can be easily coerced into telling the tale about how once upon a time, Drunken Kyle decided that his clothes were restricting his movment too much for him to properly demonstrate air-guitar techinque. So once he was completely naked and leaping from chair to chair preparing to play air-guitar, he seemed to realize that he was unable to find any actual air with which to play it. Being the improvosational entertainer that Captain Morgan wanted him to be that evening, Drunken Kyle used a certain part of his body only available to those of us with external genitalia and he played it instead of air. See now why he and I both decided it would be a good idea for him to avoid alcohol? Regardless, it was against all reason and sensibility we decided that adventure might be found at the residence of another friend of ours named Scott, who as it happened lived in Ada. And who at the time, as it happened, hadn’t been seen undeniably sober since before anyone knew who Bill Clinton even was. Not smart, but we were in our early twenties. So sue.

Anyway, when we arrived at Scott’s little den of iniquity we found him avidly watching the weather channel with his TV muted. During this phase of Scott's college career, he was always hoping to see some meteorological disaster happen to any region of the country containing an ex-girlfriend. We sat on the couch and explained the night’s goal a little bit before Scott began insisting that Kyle come into another room and investigate the latest Alice In Chains guitar tablature that he’d procured. Unable to resist the subject of actual guitars-- even when sober -- Kyle promptly agreed and the two left me watching some vaguely cute woman pantomime about various weather patterns that Oklahoma did not currently have. I became intrigued. She waved and pointed around a map of the mid-westthat excluded Oklahoma. She smiled coyly and motioned about the east coast. She gleefully impressed upon me all the silent, non-specificthings happening in the skies over the west coast. Let me now assure you that I was not intoxicated in any way whatsoever. I was just that monumentally bored, and quite frankly it’d been too long since I’d had an actual date.

Then Scott erupted back into the room with the look of drunken mischief in his eyes. Kyle cautiously walked behind him, giving me a look which confirmed that, yes, Scott was indeed drunk.

I asked what they’d been drinking and Scott replied that they’d been drinking Doctor Pepper and Jim Beam. I cursed Scott’s name and explained again to him that the mission tonight was to keep Kyle from drinking anything. Scott insisted that I relax, that Kyle didn’t drink all that much, and that we should maybe go rent a movie and watch it until he (Scott) could then fall into a drunken stupor, at which point Kyle and I could go ahead and leave.

“How much did you drink?” I asked Kyle.

He looked sheepishly at me and said, “More than I thought I was drinking. I’m starting to feel it a little bit.”

That, my Interested Party, is the sound of distant thunder well on it's way to becoming significantly less distant. Hear it? I damn sure didn't.

Posted at 10:23 pm by soapwort
Comments (2)

Tuesday, October 07, 2003
Rambling About Folks With Breasts

I love women. If you are one of those creatures, my sweet Interested Party, I soundly congratulate you. I applaud. You rock. Go, you. If you're not, why then pull up a sit-down and let us prop our feet up together in a few moments of appreciation, because, well, they rock. Go, them.

How in the Jumped Up Hell can they possibly be as strange to me as they are? They're just these people who walk by me every day. I'm related to tons of them, and as a matter of fact, exactly one-half of all my ancestors were (or still are) women. They don't have laser-vision. They don't have robotic appendages. They can't breathe underwater or fly. Or at least they can't do it without the same mechanical contrivances that would allow me to do the same. So what is it?

And where do I start? I'm a guy, so I could start with how they're upholstered so fucking well. Or how they smell – and not just the soap and perfume, but the smell of her. I don't just mean this in an erotic sense either – remember the smell of your mom, or maybe your favorite aunt when you were a kid?

Is it how they are fragile? Because if we're talking fragility in general, I'm inclined to say that men are far more breakable than women. Pain hurts worse, and the pieces don't seem like they fit back together as ably as those of a woman. Maybe this is because women live “in a man's world” and so they learn the ways people can't depend upon themselves – and how they simply must push on despite it. Maybe it's because women, being the socially-attentive creatures that they are, learn that they can depend upon other folks to take up the slack. Or maybe it's just because we men are pussies.

Still, I don't know a man who doesn't want to come to the defense of a woman facing something that needs a good killing. We want to be the protectors. We want to be heroic. Even though I've long-since discovered that a romantic relaitonship in which I primarily play the role of Hero is one doomed for disappointment for all parties involved, I still feel that tug occasionally to be heroic. Why? Maybe it's because part of us is worried that's the only reason women keep us around.

We know we're the reason manners got invented in the first place because we were too busy hitting one person, place, or thing with another one to put ourselves in our neighbor's shoes. We know we have the magical ability to do and say Exactly The Wrong Things with surgical precision. We know that without women, we'd have no reason to come home – and no home to come to for that matter.

But for some unknowable reason, women like us. They love us. They give birth to us. They raise us -- teach us to open doors and to wash behind our ears. They cause wonderful odors to erupt from kitchens, and they make us wipe our feet and wait our turn when we get there. Later on, women stir us in these other peculiar, unstoppable ways... It just doesn't end, does it? And still, men have no real understanding as to why it is that women would possibly want us around. We just count our blessings, or we take the whole issue for granted – and then we just run around being male.

It's a weird damned life, but it's not one I care to trade. Here's hoping you wouldn't either.

Posted at 07:29 pm by soapwort
Comments (7)

Saturday, October 04, 2003
Indian Tid Bit

All right, Interested Party, I'm going to go ahead and put up a disclaimer-of-sorts here first. Why? Because this world is filled with people who make such an issue about racism – it's horrors and injustices – that I now live in a country where most people think of themselves as “American” only if they have a qualifier attatched. I'll be disappointed in you if you're one of these folks, my dear Interested Party. Like “Native” or “African” or “Homosexual”. I don't stomp through my day thinking of myself as an anything-American. Hell, most of the time I'm thinking of myself simply as Me. So before you get your boxers in a bunch, let me explain that I am not a “racist”. Anyone I dislike has earned it through individual skill, hard work, and dilligence.

Now let's talk about Indians. 'Round these parts, no one calls themselves Native Americans. Folks here call themselves Indians, and occasionally Wagon Burners in jest. I'm in Oklahoma – the Indian Territory. Specifically I live in the region known in some circles as the Chickasaw Nation. It's not a reservation. It looks just like every other part of the mid-west. I am not legally Indian. Those ancestors of mine who were forced onto the Trail of Tears were crafty enough to sneak out of the line before they were herded all the way into Oklahoma. In any case -- you name it and there's a stick or two of it in my genetic wood-pile.

I want to talk about Indian Crazy. Indians have their very own brand of crazy behavior. They're really philosophical about it. Matter of fact, Indians are philosophical about nearly everything – and it's a practical breed of philosophy. Indians are more at home, more comfortable in this philosophy than, I expect, any other group of folks anywhere – be they grouped by income, location, or ancestry. Indian philosophy is more or less this: If you decide that it is time to do something, then By God go and do it and don't be half-assed about it. This applies to work, keeping appointments, passion -- anything.

In case you, Interested Party, don't quite understand what I mean by Indian Crazy, let me explain. When a white girl goes crazy, she'll decide to break some basic social taboos, but some she'll keep. She might soundly curse someone up one side and down the other in a public place, but she'll still maintain enough discretion so that folks will just realize that she's angry and not legitimately insane.

When an Indian decides it's time to go crazy, they take the whole business seriously. If you decide it's about time to go Full Blown Gazelle Shit, then you do it with abandon – besides, if you're going to break one or two social norms, you might as well keep on breaking them until you run out of them and have to go home to rest. You don't worry about consequences while you're going Indian Crazy. When you're done and it's time to deal with the consequences, you just do it. And with no less focus than you defied them with.

Still, if you can't manage Indian Crazy, I don't recommend it. It's probably not the sort of thing you can just hop off into, like Yoga. Indian Crazy takes time. Indian Crazy takes effort.

Posted at 04:42 am by soapwort
Comments (6)

Thursday, October 02, 2003
Thing 'Bout Me. Uh, again.

I like finding answers to questions, but I also like the idea of not being comfortable enough with my answers that I quit looking.

I like reading a book about which I have no pre-concieved notions and finding it to be an incredible, moving read. Someone once told me it reminded them of unpacking your winter clothes and finding a long-forgotten twenty in one of your coat pockets. I also like that I could name every single book this has happened to me with.

I like being moved by something someone else says, or does, or writes, or sings, or otherwise expresses. And I like that the only common denominator between them all that I can find is that they are genuine and sincere.

I like a getting a letter from an old friend I haven't heard from in a while. It's like re-experiencing all the things about them that are a part of me.

I like it when I'm craning my neck for another glimpse of some girl I pass on the street and seeing that she's craning her neck right back at me.

I like those moments when I realize I'm really connecting with a girl without having to try. Feels a little like coming home. It's got Comfortable Shirt written all over it.

Speaking of shirts, I like my flannel, thermal-insulated plaid shirt. Damnation, it kicks ass.

I like it when after having been inside for a while, I go outside and behold a gorgeous day that's been patiently waiting on me to come out and pay it some attention.

I like it when I'm driving in traffic and someone let's me into their lane, or displays some other courtesy, and I'm suddenly reminded that I'm not surrounded by cars but by people.

I like seeing a girl on a date before she sees me -- when she's alone and wrapped up in her own things. I haven't had any influence on her yet, and she's as close to being herself as I can be certain of.

I like watching an entire litter of puppies wrestle around like a swarm.

I like sleeping in a cold room, but under a mound of quilts and comforters.

Posted at 11:38 am by soapwort
Comments (4)

Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Thing 'bout me

How much do I rock? Just enough, just enough.

Posted at 11:25 pm by soapwort
Make a comment

Tuesday, September 30, 2003
Definition of What Cats Aren't

Cats are creatures of edges, and I think that's the thing that attracts the majority of the cat folk. It is the only thing cats are consistent about.

They exist on the edge of total complacency and passionate psychopathy. One moment they are dead asleep, and the next they are wildly defying every rule of logic and gravity in order to savage the curtains. They remain upon the edge between utter egomania and unpredictable affection. They are mercenary, only in a foreign kind of way that never quite makes sense to anyone else.

Oh yeah, they're territorial. Cats are all about borders, in so far as they need something definite to defend with righteous indignation and then, when they're done, to strut boldly beyond. Cats are like little, furry Frank Sinatras. They saunter along through creation doing things their way, because consequences happen to other people.

They're like big, furry paradoxes. They are a particle and they are a wave. And if you took one from Schrodinger and stuck it in a box, when you finally looked inside to see how alive it wasn't, the cat'd be whichever option you were rooting against.

I love the idea of cats. It's good to know that something as chaotic and still as definite as a woman can simply be, without necessarily being female. That women don't have the market cornered on edges. That there are things that escape definition to the point that you can only describe them successfully by pointing out what they're not. It makes the world more interesting to know that there are such things as cats.

And I'm still going to see just how incredibly far I can kick one of those pointy-eared stray bastards the very next time it chooses to go a'courting under my bedroom window at four in the morning.

Posted at 03:25 pm by soapwort
Comments (10)

Wounded Ego

Okay, Interested Party, riddle me this. Why is it that I've got a modestly respectable rating on (1731 people can't be wrong, can they?) and a lot lower one on FaceTheJury?? I mean, I use the same picture on both. It is – and let me be clear on this point – a picture of me. I'm pretty damned good-looking, or at least I've always thought so. I'm sporting a striking jaw-line, a bad-assed nose (in case you, Interested Party, are a woman and inclined notice that sort of thing), and my stylin' overalls with Texas A&M cap! My ass, which I have been assured represents the pinnacle of quality buttocks, isn't in the picture. But still...

My delicate ego is bruised. It is, after all, made of eggshell. How come I'm not raking in the big numbers, damnit? Growl, snarl, growl. I am left to suppose that the women of choice and taste frequent and vote me a ten. Hint, hint. Clue, clue.

Posted at 01:16 pm by soapwort
Comments (3)

Next Page